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A lonely child Well as you may or may not know. I am actually very infintile what with the way I sleep, suck my thumb, drink warm milk and I even carry a teddy bear around with me at times. I am mainly very quiet and half the time have my thumb in my mouth though my friends at school (no I don't take the bear with me to school) have started to make fun of my actions. I recently took my bear with me into the hobbie shop and took it around my friends house where I spent the night and the next day we went to Exeter along with two other guys and a girl.Thats Kay, Brett, Alex, Oz and me. Anyway Lee apparantly told some people at shool and it didn't take long to get around. They also found out that I like to call Jessica 'mummy'. So when Ben Wilson saw me today in the sixth form comman room (I'm still year 11 but it was a taster day.)Ben asked me about the bear and I looked over at Luke because I had told him because I can trust him. He pointed to Lee and he said he told. So I thought. What is that to tell people you know from school. Was that dumbness or is it away to distract them all from messing around with him and to make fun of me instead. I don't believe it. I try and protect him where ever he goes. I even act the older brother only whenever he is around. Its the only time I act older. It might have been Luke. I haven't talked to Lee yet. But why would Luke tell others? I don't know who to trust really. no one really cares for my feelings. So now what am I supposed to do? hmmm maybe I should just grow up seeings how no one cares for me no matter what age I am. No what am I saying? Of corse they care for me. They all do. I'm sure Jessica cares whereever she is. But what if she died? What if she is not who she says she is? I managed to talk to a girl called Leslie, she lives in America and we chatted on the phone. She has a cool accent. How comes its so hard for Jessica. Maybe Jessica isn't real or maybe it was all some joke but with all the conversations we had.....No I believe in Jessica I'm gonna go into school tomorrow with my head held high. Just like Jessica would say. Nathan, Luke, Dan if your reading this. Let me be who I wanna be. No I will not bring a bear into school rofl Theres no point being depressed. I gotta look at the bright side. And stick with my friends. they really are only messing around. But I need to talk to Lee about why he told. I'm sure he meant no harm. EDIT: Today is much better. It doesn't seem so bad. People have accepted that I'm infintile. Lee said he told Mike about the bear thing it slipped out apparantly. I still see him as a brother. Now I'm just trying to be alot happier and acting the way I want too. Everything seems just the way it should. Now all I gotta hope for is that I see Jessica again. When I do I will definally change my last name to Ketner.

Posted by: Nayfin Mon Nov 21, 2005 @ 10:16pm

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Commented on: Tue Nov 22, 2005 @ 10:07pm


	Aw.. hugs

Commented on: Tue Nov 22, 2005 @ 10:13pm


	well gd for u Nath. seems like things are looking up for us all...me with Claire, U and this whole situation, Nathan is doing well with the girl he fancies biggrin All seems gd Plus we got RS 2morrow razz

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Commented on: Tue Nov 22, 2005 @ 10:17pm


	whooo life is good ^ ^ -huggles Cespeh (Leslie)

Commented on: Wed Nov 23, 2005 @ 06:08pm


	Look..... It didn't just slip out. Lee said it because he was trying to get involved in the conversation. I don't insult you, I just think you shouldn't suck your thumb in public. People stare at you and think you're weird. Trudy does, Most of the chavs glance over when you do... You make it seem like you're doing nothing bad. You might not be, but they don't know that. They'll insult you for the rest of your life.....

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Commented on: Wed Nov 23, 2005 @ 08:02pm


	you know you say about the chavs yeah? Well they look at me but they don't touch me or say anything...I've heard them talking. They think that after what Jason Walker did I'm alot more shook up....Its only really Jack Moat who says anything...the prat. Corry is totally cool about it

Commented on: Wed Nov 23, 2005 @ 09:38pm


	Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa...You're eleven? eek

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Commented on: Thu Nov 24, 2005 @ 04:18pm


	No he's 15

Commented on: Sat Nov 26, 2005 @ 12:44am


	Man, I've been gone so long that I haven't talked to you at all, and now we're not the greasted of friends anymore, and it's kinda depressing. I'm going to try and be on more. Even if my dad yells at me. xd [he's anti-electronic]

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Commented on: Sun Nov 27, 2005 @ 11:10pm


	Actually...(says dentist child Acoe), sucking your thumb and drinking warm milk while and before you sleep can lead to gingivitus and bad teeth alignment. It's a hazard... sweatdrop

Commented on: Mon Nov 28, 2005 @ 12:12pm


	Acoe, you don't know how right you are.......

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Commented on: Mon Nov 28, 2005 @ 12:16pm


	Ok Dunbar you won't listen to us, maybe WE'RE Not being infantile about it If you suck your thumb it will fall off and you will get attacked by the tooth fairy.

Commented on: Mon Nov 28, 2005 @ 09:22pm


	I'm right?!?! HOMGOSH I'M RIGHT! xd

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Commented on: Mon Nov 28, 2005 @ 11:26pm


	Acoe those two are....friends from my school. Though they are not very supportive. Though I am with their problems

Commented on: Tue Nov 29, 2005 @ 01:43pm


	I AM SUPPORTIVE, GODDAMNIT! DEAL WITH YOUR OWN PROBLEMS! Oh....hang on......

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Commented on: Tue Nov 29, 2005 @ 01:51pm


	yeah you are supportive. Though things are just hard for me. Actually things are alot better now. I'm still infintile but not all the time. That ok?

Commented on: Tue Nov 29, 2005 @ 01:57pm


	No. Kidding.....

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Commented on: Tue Nov 29, 2005 @ 05:32pm


	what???!! I beg your pardon -SMACK- I believe the senetor is yielded at the floor! -laughs about Josh Riddicks randomness- rofl

Commented on: Tue Nov 29, 2005 @ 07:29pm


	Yeah errrr your very supportive about our problems rolleyes

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Acoe
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Commented on: Tue Nov 29, 2005 @ 09:21pm


	Well then...supports

Commented on: Tue Nov 29, 2005 @ 10:06pm


	Dan I am very supportive. I help Nathan I help Luke we all try to help you but you just ignor us. scream

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Dan 3266
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Commented on: Wed Nov 30, 2005 @ 01:33pm


	DUNBAR! JESS IS ONLINE!

Commented on: Wed Nov 30, 2005 @ 01:47pm


	I KNOW!!!!!!!!!! eek I'm still shocked yet so happy. I'm glad shes ok. Love you mum ^ ^

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Commented on: Wed Nov 30, 2005 @ 07:29pm


	Dan, Nathan does have a point. You bottle up all your problems. So, really, it's your fault he doesn't help you.

Commented on: Wed Nov 30, 2005 @ 09:13pm


	Oh well rolleyes

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Commented on: Wed Nov 30, 2005 @ 09:24pm


	Yes Dan its true I'm starting to get hyper though still in shock O.o o.O

Commented on: Wed Nov 30, 2005 @ 10:21pm


	Meanie friends... >.>

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Commented on: Thu Dec 01, 2005 @ 01:44pm


	Dunbar you moan that people arn't letting you be who you wanna be, so why don't you let me be who I wanna be?

Commented on: Thu Dec 01, 2005 @ 10:04pm


	hey wus up nathan.... im so bored, well like ur journal see ya

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