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Well, to be exact the morning will be with my family, but they never act like a good family so it's basically being alone. I wish I could spend it with my loved one but I really don't know whats going on with her. Does she still love me? Does she care about me? Has she abandoned me like everyone else? If she has I cannot blame her...I am me after all, and no one wants to be with someone like me.

Maybe I'm just being blind to whats really going on. She could be grounded, but the way she signs on and off is just awkward and not like normal.

Oh well, in the end it's all the same. I'm all alone and cold, with no one around to care if I'm alive or dead. Those that say they do only do it so they won't have my death on their minds. So where to go from here? End of my road? Continue the road? I ask for death everyday I am lonely and depressed, but I ask for health when I am happy and with someone that cares and understands me.

What am I now? Well, if you can't figure that out niether can I.