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Hey! I can answer number ten! -waves arms around wildly, trying to get your attention- Me!
I try to help you as much as humanly (or madeleine-ly) possible. I dont know if im very good at helping, but i try to be there for you in your rough times >.< no way would i let you be all alone. im not going anywhere, not abandoning you.
Ive forgiven you many times, because i can look past little things. Like last year. When you hated my guts. And um... did not so nice things to me lolz. I forgave you! wink
And yeah lolz. I am going to be here wheather you like it or not xp You can tell me you hate me and tell me to go away. But i probably wont xd im stubborn like that.
Ive never turned you in before. Not to the counselor, or the police (lolz), or your parents.
So so so yush. Im always here for you. Even if im a boring and lazy bum who has nothing to talk about, lolz. Just hope you know im a true friend who wont turn my back on you
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I shall answer all of these questions with aura-e answerz soooo yooh know what that meanz biggrin


ok now to start ALL YOUR BF'Z WERENT RIGHT FOR YOU BECAUSE THEY ARE ALL AZZ HOLEZ xP And i got to beat the living sht outta then specially Avery xD hahh that waz a fun day
ok onnnnn toooh the damn Q'z lol tht sounds funny q'z xD
1. cause ppl are judgmental azz holez wif no livez
2.ppl once again are fagz and will pick on and beat up any one they find an easy target, mostly ppl who do that are feeling insicure on the inside any wayz
3.ppl will overeact if they aint use tooh something like cussing, or pink hair, just anything that they aint used tooh
4. no one iz ment to be alone sometimes you have to wait for love to come to you, and i think something would have happend by now if you had picked the wrong path or wrong friends but hey wat the hell do i know life is mysteriouzzz :
5.When parents feel that there child doesnt look 'normal' or 'ordinary' or just when the child doesnt act exactly like the parent wants them tooh the parents will feel like they have failed and they want the child to be exactly what they want them to be so yehhh
6.You are Payne and u are were you are and you cant change that
7.there iz sumone out there for you but that would be very stalker-ish if they knew exactly what you looked like and acted like, but Payne i can guaretee u that there is sumone out there for yooh, who you will love unconditionally and they will love you the same way :]
8.Itz a sign that theyre not the right one for you
9. i dont think that you have ******** up your life one bit you have prbly dun things you aint proud of like everyone else you just have to learn to move on
10. AND YESH I AM ALWAYZ THERE FOR YOU IN YOUR TIME OF NEED I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU ALONE IN THE DARK I WILL ALWAYZ BE BY YOUR SIDE WHEN YOU NEED SUM ONE TO BE THERE, I WOULD SO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE FOR YOOH, I WOULD LIE FOR YOU, I WOULD STILL BE THER FOR YOU EVEN IF YOU KILLED MY WHOLE FAMILY FOR NO REASON WHAT SO EVER, I WILL ALWAYZ HELP YOU GET TO YOUR GOALZ AND DREAMZ, AND WHEN YOU FALL AND GET PUSHED OVER I WILL ALWAYZ BE THER TO HELP YOOH UP, IM ALWAYZ GUNNA BE THERE FOR YOU AND BE YOUR FRIEND!!!
so there you have it there are my answerz i hope they help chu :]

I'll answer all of them.

1.Because people are just plain rude and stupid.
2.There reason is there sick of there own lifes and want to ruin someone elses. Because there a holes
3.Idk about this one.
4. I think you are choosing the wrong people to talk to, there all assholes for hurting you in anyway.
5.Idk your parents so I can't say...
6.Thats your decision, only your decision...
7.There's soemone out there for you not everyone in this worlds a a*****e.
8.No Its just there all dicks...
9.Thats up to you, your decision to be who you want to, do waht you want to.
10. i'll do my best to be that person for you.

I hope your days from here on out are filled with happiness...And don't regret the past the past is just that "the past!" Look to the future A bright one I hope...

Lolz, see Payne? Me, Aura, and apparently Kato are here for you xDD

1.Because they dont like different people because theyre all -insert cuss word here- and are used to being the same.
2. They pick on you because they have no lives and have nothing better to do. So they go for the people who, again, look different.
3. Because they were taught to "not say cuss words." And dont enjoy when others say them. And some people are super holy or something and dont like it.....?
4. I cant really answer this one.... but me and Aura are here for you!
5.Parents want to have the perfect children who are sweet and kind and happy. But when they dont get that, then they think theyve messed up because they dont have theyre "dream" child. Which is pretty messed up because all parents hsould be proud of how theyre children turn out no matter what.
6.You are Payne and you are meant to be here, right now, at this very second, reading this sentence. Yush.
7. I am not sure about this one. But you dream about a certain type of guy right? Maybe theres a guy dreaming of you. But idk. I bet a lot of times that people fall in love with people who they didnt expect. Maybe youll like someone who you werent dreaming of.... idk if that made any sense whatsoever but idk what im saying, sooo. xp
8. Pfft no. You got that many bf's didnt you? And you think youre supposed to be single forever?? -bops your head- It just means that they were all -insert another cuss word here- because theyre all stupid. And werent right for you in the first place. The RIGHT person would never leave you. And youre still young, you have many more years to find the right person.
9.You could always start over with your life, but idk how thatll work... or deal with the life you have now.
10. mmmz, i already answered this one. I wont abandon you and i hope you dont abandon me. Yesh ill still stay by your side no matter what andd always have. Of course ill forgive u because everyone screws up. Lolz, sure ill jump off a bridge for you! If it would save you. I wont turn you in ever, and ill lie if neccessary to help you through. Well i dont have any dreams, so i guess so biggrin ill try to help you with your dreams and goals. And lolz, ill give you a hand when you fall over or get pushed down. x]

DANG! Those are some kind, loyal answers, guys xDDDDD Well, it's my turn, I guess. I'll try to answer them in the best way that I can.

1) When the first person that came up with the saying "emo" labeled someone as "emo", that person had been dressed in about the same way you dress. So now, everyone who pictures "emo" sees the way you dress and assumes you're emo instantly because that's how they picture "emo" people looking--which is EXTREMELY stupid. Someone could be "emo" and wear frilly tutu's. It's not right for people to jump to conclusions and stereotype you even when they don't know you. They're just using their first instinct, something that a lot of people do nowadays--another EXTREMELY stupid thing.
2) They've probably got nothing better to do. Lots of people do it because they want to be a comedian. "Well, I might as well pick on this girl and get a few laughs." You're basically their victim. Maybe they think you're "emo" and they don't necessarily like "emo's". It all just depends. It could be that you're an easy target, but everyone is an easy target. You could easily make fun of a popular kid with no problem. The thing is, anytime they make fun of you, they're automatically a jerk...but then that would be us labeling them, wouldn't it?
3) I've always been taught to not cuss, and I don't get ticked, but it does catch me off guard sometimes. Yes, I'm a goody two-shoes, but that's how I was raised. And who gets ticked by your cussing?
4) No you're not meant to be alone! Someday you'll probably thing you're alone and then you'll look at your shoulder and see a weird girl clinging to you and probably biting your shoulder. That would be me xDDD Lolz, I'll always be there for ya, even if you try to shake me off. Seriously, I'm like a tick. EXTREMELY clingy and hard to get rid of. 'Course, I don't want to annoy you to death, but if it means cheering you up or making you feel better and not alone, then I'm willing to do it.
5) You're not bad. Not at all. You're you. You're Jewelzie. You're Payne. You're my friend. You always will be. I don't know why your parents do that, but maybe they're just concerned. They think they failed at raising you because you didn't turn out the way they wanted you to. They want the best for you. They love you. They want people to recognize your talents. You may think that they don't care, but they do. For example, Ash has been going to recording studios and all that. My mom feels so guilty since they haven't been paying much attention to me that she asked me if there was anything I wanted to. Any kind of lessons for instruments or extracurricular activities. When I didn't answer, she burst into tears! She felt so bad, and she was sobbing and telling me she just wanted me to be happy. I remember going over to your house and me and your mom started talking about how pretty you were, and you kept denying it. They really care about you. They get you a lot of things. They got you a new phone. They get you lotsa stuff. They feel bad, and they want to show you that they love you. I'm sorry if I'm not really helping, and I don't know your parents that well, but that's my opinion on stuff...I'm sorry D:
6) You're Payne/Jewelzie. You're supposed to be doing whatever there is to do xD Lolz, anything you feel like doing, I guess?
7) I don't know o.o There could be. I've heard of people dreaming of soul mates before they even met them, but that would be kind of stalkerish...Lolz, you'll find someone someday. We're all meant to find at least something in life. Whoever it is will be there.
cool Uhh, no. Your person will come around when they come around. Now you know what to expect with a guy. With all those past relationships, you've grown stronger. You can endure the worst now. And even if you cry, you'll still be strong. It helped build your strength and willpower, so if you see any of future boyfriends making out with a girl, you'll just say, "Oh, (insert cuss word here) no!" and then you can tackle her or something xDDD Lolz.
9) You can always start over and change things. Think about Nikki Sixx. He had an addiction, didn't he? He changed it, didn't he? You can change the way you are in a snap. I don't think you screwed your life. A mistake here or there, maybe, but we all do that. Besides, if you think you screwed your life now, just think of when you'll be an adult. You can't think it's the end of the world when you think you've total jacked up your life.
10) WHY IN THE CRAP WOULD I EVEN THINK OF ABANDONING YOU?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I LUFF YOU TOOH MUCH!!! YOU'RE LIKE A SISTER TO ME!!!! I'll always forgive you, stalk you (if necessary), help you up when you fall down (I just hope I don't fall down, too! My mom calls me a klutz xP), help you every single rough time and not abandon you or throw you to the sharks, force you off the bridge so that you wouldn't jump down or off, help you reach your goals and whatever else there is. I'll always be here for you. I've known you since 3rd grade, and I've admired you ever since. You're an incredible friend, and you've always been there for me. You're just too awesome of a friend to abandon you now or ever. I mean every word I say.