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Subject line rhymed on accident, believe me. xDD anyway this is a little thing I wrote its kinda sad but I think I did a good job with the quality of the writing :33 anyway it somehow turned into a poem to Fenris or something...but whatever here it is

Despair's bitter grasp is upon me now, as I sit feebly in the silence of my own brooding thoughts. The inevitable struggles and hardships of life are slowly chipping away from the bridge that has built itself over my head, and the countless bricks gather now on my shoulders, and as they do the burdens of love and guilt overwhelm me entirely. Regret, sadness, longing, they are all the same as of now;

Regret that I've not yet surpassed
The timid remembrance of Past,
Sadness that I've not been chanced
Your loving embracement's great Lance,
Longing that I'll inevitably have,
For the churning of love that we hath.

Thoughts flood my mind, of the moon on which Tor smiles upon us as lovers, and her light floods our actions, shining brilliantly upon us as we turn to instinct for guidance and give ourselves up to our love, minding not of our boundaries, save for the most precious, those that must not be crossed 'till time deems it right. Desperately my heart wishes for the sun to arrive that my fear and reluctance are drained from existence, and finally it can taste the pure sweetness of expressing its love to the fullest. My entire body aches in longing for that moment, in which our love transforms into more than it is now, into the full extent of its being, embracing us forever in its warmth, for only then will I truly feel safety and comfort. Only then will I experience the overwhelming satisfaction connected, in fable, with Love.

And as I stir from my trance of thought, I'm left with naught but the shell of happiness and of Love, filled though with sadness and longing to be with you, and now the plea I give to Fenris is true, for it comes directly from the depths of my heart:

"O Fenris, lend me your strength
To overcome my fears,
To conquer my shyness at least for a sun,

And shine upon me your light,
To show me the way,
To guide me on my path to my Love,

And share with me your knowledge,
The cunning of the Putnar,
To help me understand,
To assist me in the course of life,

And finally lend me your eyes,
So that I might see,
The truth of the world,
Through thy eyes, unclouded."