nathanonewing: Hewo mummy
Jessica Ketner: im not in the ******** mood
nathanonewing: fine
Jessica Ketner: sorry
Jessica Ketner: im so sory
Jessica Ketner: i just found out james is ******** cheating on me
nathanonewing: oh..Im sowy
Jessica Ketner: i said im not in the mood. if you dont hear from me in 10+ days im dead
nathanonewing: Don't say that
nathanonewing: thats it I'm going I just can't talk to you when your like this I'll talk to you tomorrow
I just had this conversation with my..soul mother Jessica
From around May-October I loved every minuit, every second being with her. Then she said people threatened to kill her...they are friends of her ex-boyfriend he threatened to kill her so she slapped him. He got his mates.
She then dissapered. I though it was just that one night and I'd see her the next day. Then two nights..then three. I didn't know what to think. I cried, didn't talk, stared into the sky, had a nitemare or two.
She dissapered for 20 days....I was in school. I was with my friends, we went on gaia in the computer rooms. I had an email I thought it was Acoe or Cespeh or CenturionWind. It was Jessica...I was so happy.
she went to juvie because she got in a fist fight with her step mum. Her step mum called the police and she was in there for 20 days.
Afterwoods we had a good night or two...though we saw less of each other. Then she seemed darker and maybe even less caring.
Maybe because of where she was in juvie. Or because of her love troubles....but why is she doing this to me?
its stupid...shes like all motherly and spiritule....and hes a 'bad a**' drug dealer....his last screen name was "I'm so high"
Why is she hurting me? Why am I the one who feels the pain? She may be feeling the pain and living through this stuff but I love her.
Well thats the story.....
Oh and Thanks Ryan for being here for me
you too envy
and everyone else
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sad Nathan I'm so sorry
i feel like such a jerk for asking you to tell me this before
I'm really sorry
i swear i would never have asked you to repeat it if i knew it was this bad
i want to help but i don't think there is much i can do
i want to give you some advice but...I'm not sure what to say
on the one hand i could tell you that this is her problem and she has to work it out but on the other hand you should probably do what you can to help her get through this
i think the only advice i can really give you is don't lose faith in her but don't obsess too much over what's happening with her
it's alright to be worried about the people you love and care for but at this point it could be somewhat suffocating for her
...forget it
don't listen to any of the advice i give you
i really shouldn't be giving advice actually
it is not mine or anyone else's place to tell you what to do
i don't want it to seem like i don't care because i really do but like i said i can't do much but if you ask me, i will do what i can
oi *shakes her head*
and i was dumb enough to think that what i'm going through is bad
i don't want to be a pill but i honestly don't think there is anything worse than being pushed away by the one you love most
just don't ever forget that there are also lots of other people who love you and really care about you and i can almost guarantee you that none of them want to see you get hurt just because of someone else's problem