Words
a jumble
all mixed up
What was that?
was i supposed to write that down?
too late i guess...
drifting off
not important, i'll get it later
thoughts spin backwards
forwards
all around.
thoughts going everywhere
back to the real world
hope that wasn't important either
my words won't stay still
focus! clarity!
beyond my reach
out of order, all mixed up...
nothing
Frustration. Bitterness. Anger.
they can do it
who is they? "They" can do a lot of things
not good enough
no, that's not it.
What's wrong with me?
Tired. tired of this
no more Jumping
interesting, but not productive
Trapped by disappointed words and eyes.
Trapped by words out of order
Stop it!
please
forgetting
its important!
...obviously not...
Its there, but how did it go?
maybe it will come later
i'm sitting still
my words bouncing and rising up everything but
three people popped gum
two rows to the left and three desks ahead, a pencil taps
ahead of me, kicks a chair
behind me, she did.
No understanding. Not helping.
Words
unfocused
out of order
Welcome to my head
Enjoy your stay.
a jumble
all mixed up
What was that?
was i supposed to write that down?
too late i guess...
drifting off
not important, i'll get it later
thoughts spin backwards
forwards
all around.
thoughts going everywhere
back to the real world
hope that wasn't important either
my words won't stay still
focus! clarity!
beyond my reach
out of order, all mixed up...
nothing
Frustration. Bitterness. Anger.
they can do it
who is they? "They" can do a lot of things
not good enough
no, that's not it.
What's wrong with me?
Tired. tired of this
no more Jumping
interesting, but not productive
Trapped by disappointed words and eyes.
Trapped by words out of order
Stop it!
please
forgetting
its important!
...obviously not...
Its there, but how did it go?
maybe it will come later
i'm sitting still
my words bouncing and rising up everything but
three people popped gum
two rows to the left and three desks ahead, a pencil taps
ahead of me, kicks a chair
behind me, she did.
No understanding. Not helping.
Words
unfocused
out of order
Welcome to my head
Enjoy your stay.
This was a stream of conciousness "poem" that came to mind when I was not on my ADD meds. I was trying to find a way to describe my thought process and this was the best way to describe it. By no means is this pefrect, but it is the best I can do.
Sometimes its hard for me to express what is going on in my head or how I feel about something because I can't find the right words. I get caught up trying to find the right ones which makes me even more frustrated. Or I assume everyone gets what goes through my head so I don't elaborate or I don't mention possibly important things.
Its also really hard for me to stay focused on something; even when I find it interesting.
This was also a way of venting about how I feel about having ADD... its cool somtimes because I get some great inspiration but I wish I could turn it off when I go to school or when I need to do homework.
Comments on what you think are appreciated. <33
