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Loneliness. Love. Longing.

I miss her so much... She shouldn't talk to me after what happened... Her parents insist.... But she wants to talk to me... Could it be that she still likes me? Or is it just her bigheartedness, that made me love her so much? Please someone help me... Someone tell me whats going on in her head...

My Three Wishes (at the moment)
1. That I had Em back.
2. That she loved me like she used to.
3. That what happened, that made things this way, never happened.

I've been on the verge of tears all day... I hate living like this... I want to make it up to her, but don't know how...

I think to much, says my friends... Do I think to much? I hate crying.... I hate loneliness... I hate loving someone and not being able to move on... I hate myself...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Good thing I have Tae Kwon Do tomorrow. I can maybe let out some of this anger, this sadness. Maybe I should start playing guitar again...

Goodnight