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So I listened to "Battlefield" by Jordin Sparks.

It does make me wonder why does love really feel like a battlefield. A lot of girls seem to be into my boyfriend. Sure he is a great guy. I just feel like it is possible to lose him to another girl/woman. I don't think I stand a chance. Tell me, how would you feel if you find out your boyfriend/girlfriend gave their number to other girls/guys they met? How would you feel if you notice your bf/gf flirting with another girl/guy? How would you feel if your bf/gf seems to brush you off or push you away because of a possibility that they're talking to someone else? Love really does feel like a battlefield.

To be honest, I feel upset and not worthy enough. I doubt he cares. I feel like hurting myself. I love him but I don't know if he loves me even though he says he does. I feel like anything I say is stupid to him.