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I miss my best friend. She didn't want to be friends anymore because she said I'm too dramatic. But she wanted me to forgive her right after telling my other friend something very personal I didn't want her to know. Its going to take awhile to forgive someone for doing something like that right?! So I didn't talk to her; she always makes me out to be the bad guy, even when its her fault, like she yelled at me for being mad at her when she was sick. Being sick isn't an excuse for acting the way you did. I absolutely hate the way she acts, but I can't imagine life without her. I've been crying for days, she ignores me and even acts like she doesn't even know me, which made me so upset. But recently she's been talking to me again, sending me mixed signals on whether or not she wants to be friends again. Whenever I ask her about it, she says its a mistake talking to me. It's so hard, because we're not friends anymore, it makes me feel like I'm excluded from my other friends; they talk to me less now. It's even hard to look her in the eye. I want us to be friends, to be sisters again. We haven't talked in weeks, and it's such a strain. I wanna hug her and hang out with her again.
But the worst thing is, if we do become friends again, everything she said about me will be nulled. She told me she needed me, and that I was the only person she could call her best friend. She said I ment alot to her, and that I was special to her. But apparently that doesn't mean crap anymore. Everything she ever said about me isn't true anymore. The worst thing is that if we become friends again, and I ask her about it, she'll just get mad and say I'm being dramatic again. This is the worst moment of my life.