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another one about my 2nd cousin...he's in high school now...im in 8th grade...
[in order:
song
artist
album name]
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"Pushing you Away"
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Confusion
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confused enough about you
you confessed somthing
about your passed
we had that in common
when life hurt too bad
it would be to much too much to bare
distract those feelings w/
a straight long cut
down ur arm

i did it too
for you
i wondered "why?"
what made you hurt that bad?
who?
What?
Why...?

confused, i pushed you away
my love for you was too much
and the knowlege that i could
never have you was unbearable
you'd flirt w/ her
i'd bleed out my tears
i was in love w/ you
you were over me
i never moved on

Why did i push you away?
you were so sweet
you looked passed my facade
you saw who i
really was
i was afraid of
my feelings
i had to push you away
but I pushed too far...

10 years later
i see ur face
i nearly break down
and cry
for you right then and there
i let my emotions escape
all alone
for you
you didn't notice my
bleeding pain
you smiled and waved
i smiled
my eyes full of tears
i waved back
run to the bathroom
and cry
your gone when i come back
gone
forever
forever
thats what i get for
pushing you away