meant to be
both so broken and twisted
friends insisted
reasons were listed
you pushed so hard
i finally was worn thin
opening my eyes and i gave in
finally i'm yours, you win
both of us wounded
one more then the other
tragic love from one another
meant to be says little brother
pushed together by others
condemned by fate
me too early you too late
our hands held thru the gate
hearts broken for each other
hurting you and being hurt
playing with fire we both got burnt
love isnt easy with dirt
worthless and broken
you never needed me
letting you go isnt easy
it hurts so much but needs to be
fading away
slowly but surely
go you deserve more than me
my hands release yours, See?
my heart still is yours
though it was forced to
i know its not the same to you
pushing you away just go
meant more than you know
its my burden, my choice
send you on your way with cracking of voice
i'm sorry's are screamed over the noise
please forgive me
too wounded to be fixed
the ingrediants refuse to be mixed
our love just is jinxed
8-11-08#3
sinking slowly
another year at its end
losing my hold
hiding it from my friend
happy birthday to me
another year of none
no hope no love
no closure no one
collapse into tears
surrounding me are fears
lying on the floor dead inside
finally broken after so many years
endless torture and torment
the bruises, cuts and scars
finding hope and then losing it
walking streets thru empty cars
alone and silent
bent, broken, beat
my already crushed spirit
was it easy to defeat?
was it easy for you?
taking in all i gave
use me up and wear me out
then kick me like a stray?
happy my birthday to you
this will be goodbyes
from the endless torture
the torment the lies
when i'm gone will you even ask yourself why?
8-11-08#2
his touch though warm
feels freezing cold
as he reaches and wraps
in his arms i'm gently fold
my hearts still beating
i'm faking at life
inside i'm dead and bleeding
broken and cut thru from your knife
see the smile
hear the happy tone
cant see them fade
when you leave me alone
tired and beaten, broken down
you say you care
but as i talk
all i feel is your blank stare
sadness is creeping
surrounded but alone
to me there is no one
no where no place to call home
true family lost me long ago
from beatings and bruises i hide
when called into question
i say no but i lied
now that is past
i thought i'd finally found
the one who heals me
my stable ground
but do you really love?
do you even care?
you barely ever listened
i feel you but are you even there?
my hearts so banged up
so bloody broken beaten
i fake happiness so well
how can you tell when i'm here or defeated?
as i fade into the black
would you even call me back?
as the rope looses slack
you turn cold and let me fall
8-11-08
looking up from pit of despair
searching forever, start to doubt.
found you up there
grab my arm to pull me out
once in your arms soaring above
my wings broken start healing
carried me lifted by love
once numb heart starts feeling
once open wounds
stitched to help the bleeding
once locked to grounds
now taken off leaving
freed loosened collar off
lifted out of black
raise up to loft
life coming back
skin once pale gives color
heart once stopped beats
takes in one breath then another
pulse returning after such span is one of greatest feats
soaring on clouds
lost grip on your hand
falls to ground screams aloud
using unhealed wings to land
you continue to fly
completely unaware
plumeting i cry
this wasnt fair
my stitches were attatched to you
pulled out of skin opening
what exactly do i do?
scared to death of the falling
skin lost its color as the blood pour
wounds reopened, lifes medicine gone
tears fall as down i soar
thinking death wont be too long
wake up in hell
chained to the floor
see you over me and yell
did you want anymore?
used me then left fast
leading me and all i know
just like the rest of my past
you dropped me let me go
did you even notice the blood
staining your white clothes
didnt mean to as you stabbed me
the red turns to a flood
i dont even think he knows
scoffing i laugh this is my life as it was meant to be.
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