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kindness over
kindness over

blinded and gagged
unable to see
nothing i could do
kept you from taking me

stealing my life
taking my friends
when will the lies stop
when will it end?

chained and breaking
fighting to be free
refuse to watch you use my friends
to get your attacks on me.

unable to take this
not waiting or sitting back.
cutting thru the chains
your lies and actions force me to attack

your words all lies
your life is a farce.
telling people things
to keep them in the dark

i'm shining the light
showing you for you
revealing your lies
ruining your life with truth

all the things you've built
all the lies you say
you didn't live my life
stop acting that way

those words they are mine
i've come to reclaim them
unsheathing my sword
the untruths i shall maim them

sword at your throat
speak them once more
it will take more than death
to settle our score.

you used my friends
but first used me
myself i couldnt care less
touch my friends and you'll see

i've cut and am spilling out truth
like a torrential downpour
we can never be friends
you are not worth it anymore

gone numb

given up on hope,
left off on trying.
smiling on the outside,
insides really dying.

wished for a change,
hoped in a miracle.
circle of life emerges,
love to loss is spherical.

like a rollercoaster,
spun me upside down.
felt so loved and happy,
til you slammed me to the ground.

looking for you,
pushing past the crowd.
straining eyes and voice,
screaming your name so loud.

i've lost you,
and i swear.
i'm gone and i'm hiding,
i'm never telling where.

i'm broken and lonely,
sad, crushed, depleted.
how did i miss it?
how could i not see where you cheated?

crying no more,
aware, alive but numb.
wishing i never knew,
why you'd never come.

forgiveness

lying beaten and broken,
sharply stabbed and depressed.
how can i be loved?
i'm such a mess.

i don't deserve it,
i never did.
i missed out on life,
was never a kid.

grew up so fast,
putting up my defenses.
but as we bonded,
you hopped those fences.

i'm sorry i'm stupid,
i'm sorry i'm dumb.
i usually don't care,
i'm usually numb.

inside i'm crushed,
hurt and dying.
outside i'm broken,
bruised and crying.

with hopes in the future,
to be back in our places.
return to the photos,
when we had smiling faces.

i'm sorry.


dream shadow
this is an explaination... i use this at least a thousand times a day,
dream shadow-
during your life there will only be one dream shadow. its an entity that is important in your life, it can be a person like mine was, a feeling, an emotion, an item... it depends on who you are and your life.
it haunts your dreams like shadow haunts light its a good thing that u look for in life and chase in your dreams. you can see glimpses of it, sometimes more, can describe it or draw it. if its a person, they haunt your life, if you are broken and defeated and find this person, it fits the shard remains of your soul back together. if its an item, it is the one thing u need to get thru the day, a security item, something important to you. if its a feeling, you chase that feeling in life and look for it in your friends and realitives... that emotion you chase that in everything u do and say.

if you find it you are lucky. and it will fill your entire being. makes your eyes open to things you never saw before. it makes you feel things once forgotten. it heals wounds, fixes lives, glues souls. when all hope is lost it opens a door hidden by overgrown vines.
everything you were before finding it is finally in the past, left in the vast void of eternity. everything you knew changes into something better, something extravagant, something more amazing than you can ever imagine. that makes it brighter than sunshine.

if you cant find it yet, do not sink into sorrow. just having dream shadows means it is truly attainable, something you need to continue after. keep going i promise it will be there, it will shed the shadow and come to the light. everything has a way of becoming a new dawn, a new day. focus on tomarrow while living thru today.
there is nothing in the way just the shadow... i promise there will be sun to take the veil away.