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"you never really care"
He says he likes that about me,
but he doesn't really see
the fact of the matter,
I'm a nervous wreck.
He thinks I don't care,
but I can't help but think
what they think and how they see.
I'm sometimes so self-conscious
I'm almost nausous.
But I'm glad that you see
who I try to be,
because no matter how hard I try,
when I look I can see in my eyes when i last cryed.
And all I can see in the mirror when I look
is my pathetic fear,
dried up tears,
bad acting,
and a child who tries to think about everything.
I often lack nerve.
I've even heard that my depression would cause my road to swerve.
But I'll try and stay true,
and my problems I'll work through.
But for me, not you.