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Present Emily: How do you do it? I mean...how do we do it?

Future Emily: Hm? Do what? *is holding Lillian's hand, trying to keep her from wandering off*

Present Emily: You, I mean, we, well, you're so much different than I am...I'm not mother material...I'm, I'm not wife material...I'm not a family person...I'm a soldier...

Future Emily: Haha, you wanna know how you become ''happy'', is that it?

Present Emily: Yes. I get better...

Future Emily: You were never "not better" if that makes any sense. I was in you the whole time, we were just afraid of caring about people...you know, because dad was never around. Even then, you have a lot of good in you. *looks down at little Lillian who's snuggling Katz and looking up at her with big eyes and a little "u" smile* It just took a certain Dark Elf and a little deviant to bring it out of us.

Lillian: Hey! >: <

Present Emily: It took Cross and our baby...well I suppose that makes sense. *looks at Lillian fondly*

Lillian: Mama, I wanna go see daddy! Pease mommy? Can I see hems? : <

Future Emily: In a minute, sweetie.

Present Emily: I can't imagine ever becoming you. When does it begin? When do I feel better?

Future Emily: It already has. Look at you, you're outgoing, you're more open, you laugh, you smile, you spend less time working and more time with Cross. It's only a matter or time.

Present Emily: I see...but...our father...?

Future Emily: Will understand.

Present Emily: Does he..you know, does he love Lillian?

Future Emily: He adores her. He's usually stopping by often to see her, bring her gifts and take her to get ice cream. Don't worry, things are going to get better.

Present Emily: Cross and I make it then? I won't get hurt will I?

Future Emily: No. He'd never hurt us. I'm sure you know that. Look, I can't convince you that our life gets better but I can atleast try to assure that we're very happy.

Present Emily: I trust you. You're me, afterall....one last thing...The Order?

Future Emily: Um...well, we're no longer apart of it. I spend most of my time with Lillian and Cross when he's not off hunting. During the day, however, I'm freelance. We're freelance, that is. Urgh but having to leave out of town is murder, we usually stay gone from Cross and Lillian upto a week or two. It brings home nice pay and keeps us in shape though.

Present Emily: I see...