Me: I relized I'm way to emotional. I take things to personally...
I take small things to large... But the big things I can't take anymore...
My mother got in my face today... She told me the reson for my dad's depression was my fault. "You don't call him. It's you and your brothers fault." Was her words.
I just can't take it... Knowing it was my fault... It's just giving me a heart-ach... I couldn't help myself but cry... I feel like a child stuck in a deep dark hole and can't get out. Maybe I should talk to someone but I just might make myself feel worse... Thsoe words ring through me head. "Your fault...Your fault..." Those words just keep going and going...
It hurts just so badly...
I'm just really heart-broken at the moment... If I sound sad on my message I hope not to make you sad okay? Please forgive me okay?...

With much regret,
Neko-chan cry