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(I know it says it right down there but... it's been a week sence Francis left =.= )

About a week had passed since Francis had left Ivan. Ivan was sitting on his cotch thinking about the first time they had meet. He only shook his head. "Funny how someone can remember word by word what had happened when they meet the person they love." He said to himself. There was no humans for them to talk to. Before Francis and Ivan bought their own place Ivan had set free the three that where working for him. They where trying to pay back a big debt their contries owed. The oldest of the three Lithuania was first to go.
The second oldest didn't say a word like usually and just packed and walked out his door. The littliest one though... he was a bit scared to leave Ivan's house. He didn't really have a place to go to. His brothers witch were the other two didn't even live together. Liet had went to go live with Feliks witch was Poland's reperstent. Eduard had went to go live by himslef and work at a computer store. Soon Ravis Latvia's reprsent had found a home with sealand. A small land from England that was man-made and was unwanted by Arthur afterward.
Ivan sighed and looked around the now quite cold house. Ivan was still sick feeling more then half the time and still didn't want to eat. He only had about a small snack everyday and that was about it. Water was mainly the onlything he could stand, but no matter as much as he drank his throught was still dry. His head hurt but not as bad as his heart; times like this he wish it would fall out again so he didn't have to deal with it.
One good thing was that Francis has been texting Ivan on his cell phone a lot lately. He keeps telling Ivan what he's been up to and how he's scared to eat anything. He had told Ivan that Arthur was not in Londen and that he had paid a visit to America. How was Ivan supposed to know if it was true or not. He had no reason not to believe him, he had never lied before. And how he would respond to him kind of proved that he wasn't up to much and was bord with work.
Ivan felt a bit better knowing that he wasn't forgotten yet. But he was missing his kisses and the way he felt. He hadn't known how much someone could miss another person's voice too. Ivan wanted to call him so bad, but sadly Francis was out of minutes on his phone. He had known this for a fact because he was the one who used them all prank calling Alfred. One thing he loved to do was to mess with the American. He couldn't do it offten because eventually they will end up causing WWIII. Witch he didn't want to be the cause of that.
It was getting a bit late for Ivan witch may have been the same for Francis, but he wasn't sure about the time out in England. He had never been there, no meetings have been held there. Most of the time they have it in America because Alfred likes to think he's the 'hero' and no one wants to mess with him... well Arthur would like to but he raised him so it's a bit different for him.
Ivan surgged it off, it wasn't like he was getting any sleep himself. He keep having bad dreams and waking up crying from them. His eyes hurt and didn't want to make more pain on himslef. He hadn't cried anyother time since Francis had been gone, he didn't really have a reason. He said he would be back... or so he really hoped. He also figured that Francis wouldn't want him to cry. His oldest sister witch repersented Ukrain had told him when his pet bunny died; 'Do you think he would want you to cry? Don't you think he would rather see you smile and laugh?'.
That saying ran though Ivan's head and he stood up. "My sister is right... she usually is... but how can one help but to?" He asked himself. He looked out the window wanting to take a long walk. Franis and him use to do that once and a while if work keep Francis late. Ivan not having much experince working or cleaning stand at home practicing cooking and cleaning while Francis did the working. Kiku had given Ivan some japanese ways of gretting a family member or a loved one home after a long day of working. One of the main things was to prepare dinner, set it out nice and wait for them to come home before you eat. He also suggested haveing a small snack if their late though.
Ivan had tooken the advice and had always done that. Kiku also said if they don't eat any it would be rude if you did. Just save it for the next day and use it as a snack or give it to a dog. Only the last week Francis was with him had he had to do that, he has all this food and not enough people to eat it. Ivan was thinking about inviting Alfred over just so the endless hole could eat it all.
Ivan took his coat off the rack a stepped outside. Even if it was summer and the sunflowers stood up strait; Ivan was shaking as if he had just stepped into a blizzared. He didn't know how to explain the odd times where he would get could and needed to cover up. Usually it only happened at night too. He guessed he was use to cuddling up to Francis about this time. Times like this made him wish he had more friends. He wanted to be with anyone, even before he knew Francis he had between three to five people at his house. It depended if his sisters or Feliks was at his house.
His cell phone buzzed with another message from Francis. He picked it up and read it. 'I should get going mon cheri, au revoir.'
Ivan sighed and texted back bye, he didn't know when it started but after a while he stopped saying that he loved him over the text. He figured most of the time he's busy with things he hadn't known; or it was just as late there as it was for him and he wanted to sleep.
Another thing he has been told was to think of a bad thing that's going on in a good way. Like if someone hadn't replied to anything think that they had been caught up with something, or something went wrong when you sent it. You shouldn't think that they are mad at you, that only makes things worse sometimes.
Ivan got up to the next street and looked around. This was the first place Francis had kiss Ivan. It was a small town in France almost outside of the country. Francis wanted to show Ivan the house he now lives in.