So I have a crush on a guy. What you expect me to lie about it? Anyways, so one of the reasons I joined the school musical to get closer to him. And we have gotten to know each other a little better in about a month, maybe less.
All this time I've been trying to get him to notice me, because as I said before, I like him. He has shown some signs that he likes me back, but also some signs that he thinks I'm just like every other person in the school. It was killing me that I didn't know for sure what he thought of me. And so yesterday... I actually went to God about it. I asked Him to give me some sign that he likes me too.
So you know how in the movies, love kinda starts when they share a gaze and one of them ends up breaking away? He was trying to start that, I just felt his eyes on me, and while rehearsing I saw him for like half a second and he was looking at me. But I did the stupid thing. I was too nervous about it that I didn't look back. It was possibly that sign that God was sending me, and I screwed it all up. He probably thinks I don't care about him.
I mean, this is the guy who thought my friend was passing by him all the time because she was "stalking" him, when I would take every chance I had just to see him which may have included taking the long way to my locker so I could pass by his. It just makes me feel so guilty and depressed that I had my chance and I screwed it all up!
Hyper Nerds Eat Cookies Community Member 
|
|
