I watched a few episode of Asia's Next Top Model. My favorite left. Watching this makes me want to go and seek out some Ru Paul's Drag Race episodes. Same format, galaxies more fabolusity. No, that isn't a word.
I allowed myself something today that I haven't in a while. I still don't feel any closer to fixing this balance between what I want to do and how I want to be seen, though. It's frustrating. I shouldn't have to change myself.
He is also frustrating. I try my best and he gives me nothing back. It's so selfish.
Now to watch something X-rated, and then bed.
