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I don't know what it is about this boy, but he has me thinking about him constantly. It really isn't fair, but in the absolute best way. I enjoy thinking about him. It makes me happy. Thinking about how his hands feel when he intertwines his fingers around mine, or thinking about the way his touch lingers after his lips brush against mine. It's incredibly breathtaking, thinking about him. He gives me butterflies and he doesn't even know it. I will think about him and start smiling to myself like an idiot. I think about what he says and it runs through my head all day. It's funny that he can get nme so consumed with him, and he isn't even aware.

I'm thankful that he's put up with me, even if it's only been a short amount of time. The fact that he has put up with me for so long is pretty incredible. Not many people have made it this long. It makes me happy. Do you ever have one of those moments where you just feel like you are wanted and it's wonderful? He's given that to me, and I am so greatful. I couldn't ask for anything greater than this. There is nothing more powerful than feeling like you are wanted, even if it's for a moment. The feeling is great. It is intense, happy, exhilerating, wonderful, and meaningful all in one. It is one of those things that is really hard to describe.

It's wonderful to love someone. Scary, but wonderful. Loving someone is more than just feeling attatched. Loving someone is them opening up to you, showing their faults, fears, and their past and you loving them even more because of it. Building a bond that will become unbreakable. Working past things, giving sacrifices, and devoting yourself to someone. And the act of love is so beautiful. There is so many different kinds of love. But, overall it is a beautiful gift.

I am so lucky. I don't think I have admited that lately. I'm so lucky for the people that are in my life and for having him. For him to want me enough to call me his. For him to accept me. I couldn't ask for anything more, and it is absolutely wonderful.