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(Voice Message from: Mike Schmidt) "Jeremy? A-are you... *deep breath* No... You're probably not there. You must be at work at this time I guess. I'll try to keep this message brief then since you'll probably be tired when you hear this.

I'm going to be blunt here. I don't think this is working out. We're both so busy and I just...

*pauses for a long moment*

I-I can't. I can't ******** do this anymore Jeremy.

Please. Please just stay away from me. You can go inside of my home when I'm not there for all I ******** care, but please just ******** stay away from me from now on. I don't want to see you anywhere near me.

Don't call me. Don't try to look for me. Don't ******** help me. Do you understand Jeremy? I'm ******** done.

Goodbye. "

(The paper is stained with droplets of water, the writing shaky)
...What did I do wrong...? I just got home and...And the message...I just...I wanted it to work...I wanted it to work so badly...All I feel is this empty cavern where my heart was...I can't go on without him...If he doesn't want me to see him then...Then I guess I should just...End it...?...Will I be missed...? Have I left a mark on this world...? Why does he hate me?! I have so much love for him...Was it not enough...?

(A day after this is written; Paper stained with small droplets of blood. Writing is sloppy and shaky)

I couldn't do it. I stopped half way. It's bleeding pretty badly. I found some gauze but...I need him...I can't live without him. We've known each other for so long and he just...Ditched me...There's probably someone else. Maybe a girl....I should of known this s**t wouldn't of lasted. He never seemed to be...On my side of the road as we were growing up. He would want someone pretty and sweet...Not some other dude he could just be friends wit (The letters trail off, more blood staining the paper. At the bottom, small hearts are drawn in blood. The last heart is only half done.)