....I went to work yesterday...I walked in, and saw Mari...That was nice, I guess, she's always a treat to see. She seemed happy b-but then...He walked over. When I saw Mike, I just...I felt like throwing up. Everything he said to me hurt so much, but yet, there he was...Just staring at me...
We literally just stood there for...I don't even know, six minutes? Than Samus walked over and kind of...Broke the ice, I guess. I started to cry again...My memory fails me, but me and Mike started to talk, and...I said the wrong thing. I said the wrong. Damn. Thing. I said I would die for him...I didn't mean it in a bad way, I meant that I would like...If someone shot a gun at him, I would jump in front of it I guess...I just love him so much...
But, when I asked him if he would do the same, he got MAD at me! I couldn't take his angry glare....It just...It didn't even LOOK like him! I ran out...I heard him call me, but I ignored him. I couldn't take it anymore...I nearly got into a car accident when I drove home (******** tried to cut me off), but I made it one piece...Physically.
Emotionally, I was spent. I just felt like all of my love was sapped out of me...I feel like a wet sponge getting rung out...I know I shouldn't be whining like this, but what else can I do?! I need to ring out more of this water SOMEHOW! (I should stop with the metaphors....) I just need to let off steam...Maybe I should get a hobby...Maybe I should buy a punching bag or something...And break my hand...Or I should...No...Not that, he would just get pissed at me again...
...I don't want to make them mad again, but whatever way I turn it's just another angry face. If I try to apologize, I say the wrong thing, and Mike is angry...I cut myself, EVERYONE gets angry...I don't see what the big deal is, it's my body...I'm only hurting myself, right? Whatever, I won't do it again...Possibly...-No! No. Not again. Not gunna do it...What else should I write in here....*The periods go on for a bit, than small doodles of flowers and cars are draw in the space.*
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