ok so this is another drunk post.
Im drinking peach four loko cause I'm absolute trash lets get that clear rn :v
I'm just drunk rambling this post so feel free to ignore (not like anyone reads this as far as i know)
MAN i can't believe that halloween is just a few days away, its so crazy that time flies so fast. I swear that a few days ago it was september. Now they're getting the christmas s**t out!!
LET ME HAVE THIS SPOOPY HOLIDAY BEFORE I GET JINGLY CAPATALISIM
But I digress. It's still been a roller coaster o emotion for me lately. It docent help that my mom is being a mega b***h lately and putting me down. (yea i know I'm 21 and living w my mom I'm a loser no need to say it)
But at least I've been able to see my monster family at scarowinds <3
I miss them all so much...it actually blew my mind how warm of a reception I met with when I saw them and how they kept telling me how much they miss me on the team...It seriously makes me wanna cry. I want to go back so bad but I'm so scared that I won't be able to...I've come to terms that I have a horrible perfectionist disposition and pile it ontop of depression and anxiety and a fear of the unknown when it comes to my own well being...but still...next year i'll give it a shot on coming back...i miss it all too much...not to be too dramatic but honestly that job is what kept me from killing myself. I never knew I could be legitimately happy until i started working there.
I digress again because I'm drunk and now I'm getting super sad in my writing.
I HAVE THE STRONGEST URGE TO JOIN AN RP AGAIN GODDAMNIT.
But I'm also too shy to join an rp unless i have a friend to join with me, but look, hark over yonder, none of my friends get online gaia anymore. gonk
so i've just been wondering around towns and s**t creeping on rp titled towns and s**t..
because now if i wanna be a character i have to draw them and it takes me a ******** long time to actually get the motivation to do so.
I've had ideas for characters bouncing around my head for a couple of days now bUT GAIA AVATAR BUILDER IS DISABLED?! SO ********
well s**t it just started down pouting - a reflection of my heart allo allo :v -
I just want the avatar builder back i really wanna try to tinker around with character designs so i can get motivation to draw again omfg..
Ieeeeeeee honestly have nothing more to talk about atm so i guess I'm just going to end it here and enjoy my drunken bliss.
peace out homies,
Im drinking peach four loko cause I'm absolute trash lets get that clear rn :v
I'm just drunk rambling this post so feel free to ignore (not like anyone reads this as far as i know)
MAN i can't believe that halloween is just a few days away, its so crazy that time flies so fast. I swear that a few days ago it was september. Now they're getting the christmas s**t out!!
LET ME HAVE THIS SPOOPY HOLIDAY BEFORE I GET JINGLY CAPATALISIM
But I digress. It's still been a roller coaster o emotion for me lately. It docent help that my mom is being a mega b***h lately and putting me down. (yea i know I'm 21 and living w my mom I'm a loser no need to say it)
But at least I've been able to see my monster family at scarowinds <3
I miss them all so much...it actually blew my mind how warm of a reception I met with when I saw them and how they kept telling me how much they miss me on the team...It seriously makes me wanna cry. I want to go back so bad but I'm so scared that I won't be able to...I've come to terms that I have a horrible perfectionist disposition and pile it ontop of depression and anxiety and a fear of the unknown when it comes to my own well being...but still...next year i'll give it a shot on coming back...i miss it all too much...not to be too dramatic but honestly that job is what kept me from killing myself. I never knew I could be legitimately happy until i started working there.
I digress again because I'm drunk and now I'm getting super sad in my writing.
I HAVE THE STRONGEST URGE TO JOIN AN RP AGAIN GODDAMNIT.
But I'm also too shy to join an rp unless i have a friend to join with me, but look, hark over yonder, none of my friends get online gaia anymore. gonk
so i've just been wondering around towns and s**t creeping on rp titled towns and s**t..
because now if i wanna be a character i have to draw them and it takes me a ******** long time to actually get the motivation to do so.
I've had ideas for characters bouncing around my head for a couple of days now bUT GAIA AVATAR BUILDER IS DISABLED?! SO ********
well s**t it just started down pouting - a reflection of my heart allo allo :v -
I just want the avatar builder back i really wanna try to tinker around with character designs so i can get motivation to draw again omfg..
Ieeeeeeee honestly have nothing more to talk about atm so i guess I'm just going to end it here and enjoy my drunken bliss.
peace out homies,
10/28/15 8:12PM
