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Lost in my dreams
I never want to wake
Never want to see the sun
or the dawn again

I want to stay
Within the nightly realm
Of where nothing exists
but my deepest of thoughts

It's an escape, yes
And escapes are never good
We've been told

But as the tear falls
Is it so bad?
Better to have a small hope
Those small little dreams
Than to have nothing at all

I know of the consequences
should I lose myself within fantasy
I would soon expect perfection
And be over sentimental
What a life to live

I sit on my bed
Wishing for something more
Ever always something more
Staring at the mirror
What is wrong with me?
I should be glad for the live given

How can I be glad?
Without that pillar of strength?
It all comes back to lovelust
The human need for contact
For presence

I close my eyes
Ready for the night to come
To lose myself in a dream

And it's all I can do
To not wish to ever wake
And live the life that was given