Everyone around me is in a deep relasonship and I'm not. My sister won't shup the ******** up about her billion and one boy friends and it's annoying the hell out of me! My friend Lilly isn't really helping much either, she's in love with a guy she met here and can't stop tlaking about him, I know I'm being extremaly selfish but I win everyone would just shut up about it! Every guy I've gone out with broke up with me and a week later was with a better girl having the time of his life, planning things like marriage and they don't know how much it hurts for them to tlak about it around me but it seems like no one cares anymore.
Also alot of my friends know how hard it's gonna be for me to find the right person because I'm not like everyone else. I'm not pretty or smart, I'm not thin with a perfect face, I don't have tons of money, a big house, lots of friends, I hardly even have a life and people just are expecting to much from me because of my stupid sister. She was pretty much the ruler of my school and so they expect me to take over and rule over everyone with a crown of paper.
What I wanted more then anything along time ago was to just be left alone but no one would so I gave up that dream, I want it again just to be alone but I know no one will let that happen and then they're gonna try to label me and I just plain hate it! I have only a few people I trust, I lost one of them and I hated it because I loved her alot but then she ran away from me.
I know I shouldn't complain, I have lots of things most other people don't and that I should count my blessings and I try to, and I will.
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