In case you didn't know, the title of this entry is the title to a song done by the Murderdolls. I chose it because that's basicly how I'm feeling right now. I'm done, done trying to feel pretty, done trying to look pretty. It's never enough for me or anyone else. Everytime I finally start feeling better about myself, my self esteem gets knocked back down by those I love and care about. No, not strangers...... People I love. How the hell is anyone supposed feel good about themselves when the people whose opinions really matter to you, are telling you that your not good enough?
This all makes me question my motives for trying to better myself. Was I doing it to make myself happy, or to make others happy? I can say I wasn't happy before, but you know what.... I'm still not happy. Even after all the hard work that I put into this. Where do I go from here? Do I contiune going up? Do I go back down? Or do I just stay where I'm at??
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