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I hate people, they suck. Why don't we just all get along and not dispise half the people we know...? I'm sure everyone else in the world is lovin' life, I just don't get how social people are.
Most, not all, but most of my "friends" are all "neh, let's ignore Emily and then she'll go away" They like that game a whole lot. But I'm quiet anyways, so they can't be mad at me for what I said.
I barely open my mouth around them now. I can't talk about this, or that because I'm afraid they'll dislike what I'll say...they already ignore me, so why add hatred to the mix. They say to be more social, hell no.
I'm not a very social person. I'm not anti-social. I'm just not very social.
I don't cling to people, but obviously they think I do. Hmm, speaking to that person maybe five times tops during the day, about five minutes of conversation just apparently ticks them off. Oh well, they will be ignored for a few weeks. Not a word will be spoken between us, and I'm sure she'll love it.Love it.
Damn, no one cares, but that's all right. I feel better writing this crap down, I guess it is better then running into objects to feel the rush of pain. I don't go for that, I go for the pain that lets you know you are working hard. Not that "oh let's just stab ourselves with knives because I'm sad."**
Hmm, and I'm becoming closer friends with a girl I was best friends with for years. At least seven years, maybe more. Anyways, we weren't friends a few years back, and she left me for this other girl. Well that girl moved away, and my poor friend has no one to hang out with anymore. Since no one likes me anymore, I take advantage of this, and I sorta like it. But I hate it too. Why do people have to pick you up and be all nicey-nicey, then drop you with the cold shoulder.
Whatever, it's okay. It's not like I'd be with them for much longer, a few more years and I'll never have to see their bloody faces again. I guess that would be good. No, I can't say that. I still love them deep down, past all of my anger and other emotions. I can't help but still like them, but I know we won't stay in touch for much longer. They'll move on. I'll move on...
We're a happy family again. 'Cept we are appart, but we'll all understand when it happens.
All understand...
**Note: This is an opinion. If you inflict pain upon yourself, be my guest...so don't jump down my back as if I was insulting you. Maybe you feel like you are earning that pain, whatever you think is your opinion.
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 Posted by: Kitamashi Sat Oct 14, 2006 @ 03:23am
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