uuugh...damn mothers! ma was making "drinks" last nite an me being stupid drank em...she said i needed em cuz i was getting all sad an "suicidal" acting...*holds tummy* well now i really wanna b all "suicidal" damn b***h i think was poisoning me! uuugh...anyways...iam feeling alot more relaxed tho...ive been thinking alot the past while an i guess u could say somethings in reality happened an i had a lil nervous break down...lmao i havnt had one of those in a few months sooo it was weird...but now that ive had it i relized something...its not the fact that i dont care its the fact that i dont want to care...bcuz i dont wanna care nomore i keep ******** caring...so ive decided to jus say ******** it an move on wit my life...another thing i figured out is that this person who i really hav feelings for (bah stupidity) i no how to not feel for them anymore...i jus need to open my eyes an relize somethings...lol an now that i hav been thinking it over i relized its not that hard...so now this person will nvr hav to worry bout me liking them again...bcuz i think i can change my feelings for them an lock them up an hide them from me...that way i wont ever b hurt an i wont b a burden to him nomore...*sigh of relief* boy does saying that make ya feel better lmao...an they say thats wat therapy is for! hahaha dumb ******** think im gunna jus do a few more things an then ima gunna go burry myself face down in a pillow...*smiles* then hopefully tomarrow this damned poisoned caused tummy an head pain will subside an i can get on wit my life an restart my feelings...niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiite
imjustme91 · Sat Oct 21, 2006 @ 04:09am · 0 Comments |