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Ummmmmm...... I'm a little confused right now. Lets see, Daniel and I have been together for what? will be 3 years in December? We have been engaged for almost 2 years eek . WOW!!!! That's a long time to be engaged isn't it? It seems like the closer the wedding date gets the more anxious I become...... not good anxious, the anxious where you wanna run away and never come back kind sweatdrop . Every bridal magazine and wedding website I have gone to says that these feelings are normal for brides to be, but dear god. We've all seen how most marriages end up in America. How do I know if these feelings are stress related or if they're genuine? It's gotten to the point where the only romance in this relationship comes from me. We hardly get to see each other, we almost never really talk anymore because he's always working. And when he isn't working he's sleeping just so he can get up and go to work again......

Now I really don't feel I have a right to complain here since I am jobless at the moment, and he works so hard because he doesn't want me to have to work. I love him for that, but if this is the price I have to pay, then I would rather me and him both work and get to spend more time together. I love him so much and all the money in the world could never take his place. I try to tell him this but he just kinda nods and goes on with whatever he's doing.

We have got to get a second vehicle. for one, I can't drive a standard, and when he's gone I don't have any means of transportation. I went from the city, with public transportation, to a very rural area with nothing but wide open spaces and absolutly nothing within walking distance.

okay I'm done with my little pity party here, yeah whatever.