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Ok so I use to crush on this guy I met during the summer. He was like the perfect guy for me. We shared common interests, including the love of manga/anime which is really rare on people I usually crush on. Plus, he looks like Adam Levine, main singer of Maroon 5, a total hottie I wanna screw with! cool heart So yeah, he's really friendly and all. Only problem, he lives like 2 hours away from Montreal. sweatdrop
There was the Fantasia Festival going on in july and there was lots of cool movies showing. The guy that I will name F wanted to see a movie and he said that he'd only go see one if I invited him. Which I did! He was going to be near Mtl so that was convenient. Luckily, he had a car and we didn't have to use the metro. I asked for 2 tickets for the movie and when the cash lady said it was SOLD-OUT, I swear that my heart broke. The gods were with me that day because this lady came with 2 tickets of the movie that she was selling at a cheaper price. So I bought them while F was withdrawing money from his debut card and he was mad cause he wanted to pay for them. I told him that it was fine, even do he was about to hand me a 20$ bill! I refused it so he bought me snacks and the movie was REALLY good. It was a thai horror movie called "Hell" and well it makes me not want to go to hell at all!!! domokun F was suppose to leave to go meet his friends, but he prefered having dinner with me. That's when it started to feel awkard cause well... it looked like a date and it wasn't a date in the first place so I was really confused and a bit nervous. It showed and he noticed it so we talked and my nervosity was gone. When I talk, I can go on for hours and I'm happy. xd Then he took the time to drive me home even if he was already late to meet his friends. What a total sweetie! 4laugh heart
Ever since that day, I've been thinking of him all summer but didn't get to see him anymore and didn't get any news either so I had forgotten about him. Especially since the month of august was so busy with my brother's wedding which was a total success! whee heart Then I started cegep and yeah, things were going pretty well for me. Also I met this guy which I crushed on, but got over him as I realized he was taken. In between, I was still thinking of F and I wanted to see him again even if I knew he was busy. I still have feelings for him and everything reminds me of him. I had sent him an e-mail and he replied which made me really happy. I talked to him on msn today and like, I'm literaly dying of joy!!! Seriously, it's crazy how my heart is beating and that I can't think straight anymore. I have 2 freaking labs in methods due tomorrow and I can't get them done cause I'm thinking of F, waiting for him to come back online!

Also, I wanted to know what you guys think of this. Do you think he likes me or am I just imaginating it? I have no idea of his love status for now, but I need to find out soon. It really pisses me off not to know his feelings towards me cause I don't want to get hurt. I've been hurt so many times before, but this one could kill me. Maybe he only sees me as a friend and if he does, I want to keep his friendship and I'll just put my love aside in a jar.

I can't go to bed and I can't do my labs... s**t, why are you torturing me like this F?

EDIT: F and I had lots of conversations on msn this week. He's told me something that made me really glad, but it also got me confused. I told my one of good friends that pointed out to me the obvious and now, I feel ******** sad about it...

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