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24. My bad?

I didn’t go to work today, so I got suspended for the next two days. Erm, luckily for me, those are my days off so I technically didn’t loose anymore hours… However, I did it with good cause. I confessed… the majority of my feelings to Niota. However, I’m not 100% sure if she loves me the way that I love her yet though. Javier is currently talking to his brother, Alex, and is trying to get his niece Siriah to come live with us when ever he finds her, but Wendy thinks that he already knows where she is…

.. A little bit later
We were watching Forrest Gump. I just left where he was running for 3 years and stuff like that.

However, she did say that she loved me, and that she was always happy with me. But something slightly troubled me when she said that there was nothing I could do to make her mad at me, and then said no matter what I do all is forgiven... And… we did kiss a little, but not *kiss*… So maybe she does love me in that sense, but I won’t be completely at ease until I do know… *blushes* I was so hot after I told her… And to my relief she swung her arms around me and said she loved me too... It’s just hard for her to say it, from what I recall that her mother always gets teary-eyed and drunk with drama and stuff when she talks about love and things like that.

But… I’m in a mixture of anxiety of telling her, that I… want to be with her always… It made me a little sad that she said she would never marry anyone who could never understand that there would always be room in her heart for me… That made me sad. We talked till 5 in the morning… (From 11 to 5 basically) and then we woke up around 9 and talked till 12. Then we had a break, and a took a nap while she went to see the therapist for a while and then we talked from 4 to almost 10… It was also just relaxing and just lying’ there too lost in thoughts and words.