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Damn it, I really hate myself.
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I get so stupid sometimes. And then I draw a blank... no words left to be said. All because of why?
I don't know...
I can't seem to get over the fact that I don't deserve any of this. >.<
I'm such a terrible person all the damned time. I never just say what I mean, or what I feel. I hide everything. Maybe I'm still in denial... but... I don't think so. >.>
I wish I wasn't the way I am. I wish I could be who I want to be. But I'm such a coward. o.o And no matter what I'm thinking inside... nothing comes out.
I hate it so much. >.<
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People need constant reassurance of things. You got to remind them of how you feel, or they might forget. They might start to not believe you. They might have never believed you from the start.
People are such insecure creatures. They tend to have very little faith in themselves. Sometimes they need someone to remind them how wonderful they can be~
But I'm too weak to provide any support. I'm too afraid to say the things I want to say. I'm basically completely useless to anyone. Can't even help myself. &.&
I'm sorry for being this way. I hate being this way so much. But I can't seem to change. It's the way I've always been, it's the way I'll always be. And though I try so damned hard to just be different, it never works. I just... stop. For a little while, I cease to exist...
Life is such a depressing journey. All the sad things tend to just cover up all the wonderful things. And though a smile can hide a million tears... a smile isn't so easily done after a million tears.
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I try to talk like I'm smart, but it doesn't work. xD Mreh, I'll just pretend I know what I'm talking about, though none of it makes any sense. <.<
Well... I tried to un-depress myself, but I ended up making it worse. Yay me.
Though I wish to continue typing, I must conclude.
So long, my invisible readers.
- Sakura Lied.
 Lyccea · Wed Dec 13, 2006 @ 12:33am · 0 Comments |
