Today i met him.. but i dont think he will understand how i feel about him..
i wish i could tell him how i feel..
but you know what.. we are best friends..
i dont think i have a chance against that.. he makes me happy, calm, and fun to play. but i want to expereince more than that.
i want to hold him, i want to get closer to him.. but i dont think thats gonna happen... i know how he is.. i dont think i have any chance for him and me..
i always feel its going to be a 50-50..
i dont understand, he doesnt know how i feel.. i always say, i love you.. but he thinks its all a big joke.. he doesnt know if i am serious or not.
i donmt want to show my serious face against him. my heart cant take any longer
than that.
"i..i love you!! cant you tell how i felt, i want you to be there for me, by my side,
even if you dont like me! my feeling wont change! and you will promise to take me and my friends out!! to fly!! may be at hwaii or tokyo! i want to sit next to you,
lets share room.. but not have sex.. but just to be together! i want you to know how much that i love you so much!! and i really want you to understand how it feels to be taken care and someone who you can protect!!
i love you! so much! you mean everything to me!!
i'll watch you day and night, i'll keep you warm and tight, i'll make you feel like everything will be new. we can be new lovers, we can share how we felt,
i'll stay by your side this whole life time, i just wish of how you felt towards me.
i will make you feel as if you are home. where you belong. im so glad that i met you. i wont regret anything, we will be equal to equal. you do i say and i'll do you say. i'll skip work for one day, i'll ditch class just to hang out with you, i'll take you away if your about to go waste you life on something you dont care about yourself.
i know how you feel, you're suffering, even if you can laugh and smile, inside of you
you felt really lonly, you need someone to cheer you up. so that you dont have to face it anymore. like me.
four or five years of likeing or confusing likeing a boy..
i'm not even surehow to face him.. sometime i know how he feels when he looks around me. but sometime i think hes very cold and dont care a crap about me.
i wish he was like jackie. he understands how jany must've felt.
jany so lucky to have him. i'll pray to god for jany wish just to be with jackie!
but pela... pela... pela must've felt really lonly..
if i live with her everyday.. as a sister.. i bet she wont felt like this anylonger.
her brother is so abussive. i wish i can kic his candy a@! for hes been putting pela
through! and jany!
if i were the mom!! i would took everything with care! if my sons act like that even if i needed his help, i would just tell him to respect girls.. and even says the lowest i can say!
but once when i am all grown up.. i will be all alone.
theres noone here with me.
i'' let darkness take me this time.. but the next time i find true happiness..
i will fight and win for sure..
i am very confident..
but why am i such a coward!!
I LOVE YOU!! WHY CANT ANYBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW I FELT!!!!!!
i love you!! sagubenekeni/ kuis
 lilo_shy_angel · Sat Dec 30, 2006 @ 06:58pm · 0 Comments |
