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I don't get it. I don't understand any of it. Who the hell am I? Where do I go? How do I escape the doubt?
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It's amazing how broken simple words can make you feel. It's amazing how much you can feel the emptiness when you're yearning. It's... amazing how blind I can be sometimes. How stupid. So ignorant, unknowing to when I'm really hurting someone.
How I can be such a b***h sometimes, and completely miss my own signs to stop. 'Cause sometimes my mind goes blank... and just negative words find there way out.
Mreh. >.>
Doubt.
There's too much doubt. There's too much faithlessness.
Hm.
How do you win this game anyway?
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I guess I just have to find a way to accept the positive as fact.
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Something that I worry about too much is going back to the cutting thing...
For example. o.o
I'm bleeding right now. Bit my nail too far, thumb ish all bloody. And I know I'm not supposed to enjoy that. But I love it. o.o
I'm going to go. o.o Got to clean it away. Got to fix it. I don't need this anymore. Never again.
- Sakura Lied.
 Lyccea · Tue Jan 16, 2007 @ 06:06pm · 0 Comments |
