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It's amazing how much I regret one of my previous entries... <.< It's amazing how much I wish it never fell apart. It's just so damned amazing how sorry I am. >.<
Wish I knew exactly what I did so I could fix it. No matter how much it messes me up. xD This is always the state I'm found in. A state where I just want to crawl right back. Dx
And why? Didn't I sound so sure of myself before? Didn't I say that no matter what, I wouldn't let myself ever doubt my beliefs? Didn't I try and convince everyone that I was the victim here?
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I said I would never say I was sorry. Because I wasn't. And... right now I'm not sorry either. xD I just... don't want to be the bad guy...
I want...
If only just to be acquaintances. I just don't want to be hated. >.< I don't want to be the one who messed up; the one who screwed every damned thing up. Dx Not again. This time... I don't want to take the blame for something I just don't feel I did. Dx
WHAT DID I DO?!
Why didn't you tell me about it once. &.& Why didn't you say that you needed more attention or whatever? You never gave me the chance to fix myself. >.< You just waited until you could use it as the 'reason' to hate me. Dx
Correct me if I'm wrong. >.< Please. That's all I want. D: I just want... your side of the story... straight forward; your words directed at ME. And only me. With meaning; with thought. Not just some excuse.
The actual truth...
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I said that I'd given up. That the last entry dedicated to this... would be the last amount of effort I'd ever put into this.
I don't know. I'm just freaking out slightly... >.>;
Nevermind. xD
- Sakura Lied.
 Lyccea · Mon Feb 12, 2007 @ 01:54am · 0 Comments |
