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Days go by, time moves on. People pass by, leaving me to drown... Drowning in self-inflicted sorrow, brought on by outside pain. Will the sun rise tomorrow? Or will nothing end the pain?... When she is near me the pain ends, allowing the sun to shine through. But away from her the world wants me, enjoying the pain it puts me through... The pain seldom ceases, time and time I try. But with every glimpse and hope, I am doomed to hold myself from crying... This fallen angel was not meant to, see the world through pain-racked eyes. Doomed to help others through theirs, not seeing the ones that want to help his... Always cursed to fly on, not seeing the pain that he causes. Flying on those hated black wings, though for now he pauses... For life is like this candle he now holds, short, sweet, and fleeting. The bringer of light and heat, that would keep this heart beating... Wilst they only take this candle, and hold it for their own. They would no longer need to worry, about the darkness that is their own... The candle is a moveable light, for however long it lasts. But soon I fear my time will soon end, my candle not made to last... Its fragerance brings many, the light all together soothing. Though to me it may not be that, to my friends its been proven to be of boon... And in the end it will flicker out, leaving me alone once more. With no one but her to notice, that my footfalls no longer fall at the door... For the darkness will shield me from veiw, for I want no one to see. The pitiful life that flashes before my eyes, that does not belong to me...

Posted by: gothic_monsterman Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 04:46am

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Commented on: Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 04:57am


	The one who helps others greatly, is the one who is in need of help himself...

Commented on: Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 11:38pm


	The light that all have go out in the most crucial times in one's life. When things matter the most and truths come to life, no matter how difficult they are a friends true color's become most apparent. I hope this lady in your life does not leave you in the darkness fallen angle friend. But should she decide to do so know that others will light your candle to bring you out of total darkness once more to have a glimps of the light that you desire. ~ Mistress Piper ~ >^^<

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Commented on: Thu Feb 22, 2007 @ 08:41pm


	do u feel the way i feel: r u hurtin as much as me? do u go to sleep crying every nite? dose ur heart beat faster when ur scared? do u hate knowing that no one loves u? do u hate being hated? do u want ppl to see u, but u dont want them to judge u? r u afraid to love, because u kno u'll just end up bein hurt? do u feel like ur heart cant handle n-e more pain and disopointment from the ppl u love and care about? is ur life fallin apart? do u hate urself? this is how i feel: im hurting i feel like crying all the time my heart beats faster and faster when im scared hate knowing that no one loves me i hate being hated i want ppl to see me for me and not for somethin that im not or somethin im plyed out to be im afraid to love, because ive been hurt too many times to count... and im not ready to go through all of that again i dont think i can love again cas im tierd of all the pain and disopointment ive had to deal with because the ppl i care and love didnt care and love me sometimes i feel like my life is fallin apart, and that my childhood is slipin away from me way too qickly and i have no control over my actions i think i hate myself, i kno i hate myself. i hate the way i look, the way i talk, the way i act, the stuff i do, i hate myself. and i dont kno why. friend told me that! the truth is that im afraid. afraid to live my life. afraid to be different, afraid to be unique, im afraid of what i dont kno, afraid of what ill learn. im afraid to love, because i kno ill just end up getin hurt. im afraid of u, because ur different. im afriad to tell the truth. im afriad to lie. afriad that ill be lied to. im afraid of rejetion... im afraid to be MYSELF, because the THUTH is that i hate MYSELF.

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