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Okay, to all of those that find my life to be interesting enough to bother reading my journal...


I told Daniel yesterday what my plans were... that I'm going to be leaving at the end of May. Once I explained my reasoning and everything, we both just sat there staring at the wall for an hour, not saying a thing to each other. While it was quiet in terms of speaking... all the raw feelings and emotions cut right through the silence, screaming loud and clear, every word we weren't saying to each other. Being around each other after that felt so awkward. I couldn't look him in the eye and he refused to say anything to me. I don't blame him though, I would probly have done the same v.v

Things lightened up when he got home from work. I guess he had time to cool off and chew things over in his mind. We held a civil conversation about how we should act around each other and whether or not we will be able to remain friends (more than likely not). We both took full responisiblity for our mistakes and the events leading up to this. He was surprisingly understanding about the whole thing. I know regaurdless of what either of us say, this is going to be hard on us both. We've been together for 3 years, 2 of which we were engaged. That kind of history doesn't just go away. Even so, I still feel that this is the right decision for me...