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ARGH! T^T It's as if...one event can become a shock wave. A ripple....one touch and it just gets bigger every moment. A problem, a result, whatever it may be, it always seems to go bad for me. sweatdrop I am not stupid, I can read between the lines....*sigh* and lately it seems I just have a huge sign in the middle of my face that reads "Im a b***h. Stay away." I probably am but...I don't know. It just seems I am making everyone stray away from me..or I am doing something to have everyone want to leave. *bangs head against the table* And no it's just not one event. It's happening alot lately....I can really notcie it today. Maybe im just loosing it ._. Ya know? Slipping deeper and deeper in my depresion to a point I can't get out >-> I feel like im getting worse everyday. I can be happy but, now, it's as if that little aura of sadness wont leave gonk When it does come, it passes...but now..it seems to leave a slittle something behind. I know my friends are there and all but, ...maybe I am gonna need something more to lift me up later on, especially if this gets worse ._. because maybe its building up xp ugh whatever. I can't even do my school work anymore. I feel like im failing. Well I am but -_-' I can't help but think im probably gonna be a highschool drop out DX well, I guess maybe I should start on the work anyway ._. xp Later.