When I walk, I almost always walk on my toes, or on the pad of my foot. Really is kind of odd considering that I'm flat footed. I do walk on my heels.. but only when I'm angry or in a bad/upset mood. You wont be able to always tell, because my heels do touch the floor, but there's hardly any weight on them, you would be able to tell by the way my hips move, as though I'm always wearing at least 2 inch highheels. And When I notice, or someone else notices these things about me I usually try to figure out WHY I do that, if it's just a part of ME for who I am, or for who I've become: I realize that my walking on my toes comes from my inability to trust, either myself or someone else or perhaps I'm just trying to be quiet and be at a constant 'stepping lightly' state, which in my case is a bit hilarious, considering there's nothing light about me except maybe my skin. When I was young (Which of course is where most of myself developed) when I'd walk around the house, I felt the need to always hide for fear that my parents would become angry about something I or my brother did, therefor.. stepping lightly could possibly be a way to be keeping quiet so I wouldn't be noticed when an anger spout of my parents came about. When I was slightly older than that, but still young I was moved into a house of a friend of my mother, of course with my mother in my brother after losing our home. I could probably say that while I was there my heels never touched the floor. I had my basket of stuff that I always kept neat and orderly as to not anger the woman who's house I was staying in, even if she wouldn't have minded it being a little messy. I'm at a constant not wanting to offend people, I'm starting to learn otherwise. But as for now, I am insecure of myself.
x-XMissWafflesX-x · Tue Feb 27, 2007 @ 04:17pm · 0 Comments |