Damn.. I want to write something, but my mind is so much on a subject which I don't feel would be good to write about here. X.x I like plants.. I have alot of plants... sorta, not as many as I'd like, when I'm around them and I see them all alive and green, it's like I can feel the life in them. I didn't always want a garden, but since my last personality development I've wanted one like mad. Huge garden with vegitables and flowers, and tons and tons of foilage, I like the foilage the most. It's like a thick soft blanket surrounding and protecting. Like it's God's way of hugging me. Or that really weird thing that happens after it rains where everything seems.. yellow, ya know? It feels like a gift. I want to dream tonight, I don't always get to, I like dreams alot.. Especially really really odd ones, or significant ones, the bird one mentioned earlier was really weird, and felt extremely significant. Like I'll be involved in something that I felt so perfectly right in, then I'll leave to check out something else.. and get stuck there, look back and realize what I've lost and how much I miss it. It's such a possibility that any night I could go to sleep and not wake up, I think tonight's going to be one of those nights that I go to sleep hoping for that. Or even sometimes just get stuck in one of my weird dreams and never have to leave, just constant adventure over and over and over.. perhaps I'd get tired eventually but.. right now I don't know if I care. I'd just hope it's not one of those really freaky dreams that I get where I'd have to watch people dying over and over, or mutating into some kind of beast like a dream I had about Brandon that onetime. The images were... extremely disturbing. Alot of my dreams have extremely disturbing images, I've seen people kill themselves, I've been in natural disasters, I can't say how many times I've died in my dreams as someone else.
x-XMissWafflesX-x · Thu Mar 01, 2007 @ 03:12am · 0 Comments |