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Becoming TC

Once I was childish.
Always playing,
Never working.
Immature to no end,
Jokes and trouble followed me.
I childish will that would not bend.

Now I am grown up.
Smarter faster and stronger,
Working not quite to potential,
But at least the bare minimal.
More mature now than before.
Still always playing with no end.

Once I lost my mind.
Filled with anger and hate.
Blinded by false ideals.
Didn’t want to work,
Only to play.
Thought forever my mind would be lost.

But then I found it in the arts.
Writing and drawing soon became hobbies.
Everyday when I was bored,
I’d daydream stories and draw anything.
Never consistent in my thoughts,
Imagination wild and open.

If I had one wish it would be to have inhuman powers.
Going everywhere by running or flying.
Never stopping for anything.
Anywhere at anytime
Strong enough to carry an elephant,
And throw it like a ball.

If I could change the world, the world would see
Animals wild and running free.
Lions and tigers for pets.
Riding gazelle from place to place.
Kangaroos to hold your stuff and keep it safe.
And big ligers to help the cops.

Once I couldn’t draw my ideas.
Struggled to create and envision.
People looked like lumps of clay.
So I kept on drawing every day.
Hated my own creations.
Tried to throw them out, but hesitation set in.

But now you should see me…
I’ve improved.
Alone I struggled and my struggle pulled me through.
I improve slowly.
But never give up.
But improvement is improvement no matter what.

I used to feel pressure.
Like I had to get better.
Like failure was as bad as death.
Criticism both good and bad,
Fueled my drive,
Made me mad.

But know I know,
I could make it if I try.
No need to struggle,
No need to cry.
I keep getting better,
And I won’t give in.

The one thing I learned is,
Improvement takes time.
It takes sacrifice,
It takes hard work,
It takes determination.
It takes a strong will.

Once I was lost.
Trying to find what I wanted.
Trying to find how to get it.
Struggling to achieve it.
And working hard to keep it.
Look at me now and you wouldn’t believe it.

But now I am stronger.
I learned a lesson,
And I turned the page.
On to the next lesson,
To see what I’ll engage,
Trying not to give into rage.