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One of My Greatest Hates

I see them everywhere on Gaia, I see them on television, and I see them in my boyfriend's bedroom. I hate them, and I want to destroy them all.

Sexy Anime Girls

I remember watching an anime (I can't remember the name) with my boyfriend one day and there was this particular girl in it that I didn't like because she acted all cute and innocent but her skirt was so short that it was almost impossible to move without showing her underwear. Later in the show, she died and her blood was smothered everywhere. Her body was mangled and mutilated, but she was still identifiable. And I remember....smiling. I was so happy that she was dead that I couldn't help but smile from ear to ear. Normally, I don't like seeing people die. This, however, was an exception.

I hate them because my boyfriend, my love, likes them so much. His last girl friend tried looking like an anime girl all the time, which is one of the many reasons I hate her as well. (She is also rivaling Brittney Spears and Paris Hilton in intellegence) He loves the type that appear innocent and young, but underneath it all they are sexual fantasies come true. He has a few posters in his room of anime girls in their underwear. I have to control myself not to rip them to shreds and tell him that I'm standing right here, tangible and existing.

I maybe be innocent, but I don't go into cute as much. The truth is, I don't want to be a cute girl. I want to be a gorgeous, beautiful, sleek and sensual woman. It hurts me to know that I'll never be that. No matter how mature I act or how old I look, I'll always be a girl. Never a woman. I'm jealous of these anime girls because as cute girls, they are perfection even though they are not real. I want perfection. I want it so badly but I can never have it.