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Fell Apart

This pain is crashin' down on me
And there's nowhere I can hide
There's no light to allow me to see
The way to the hope I left behind

Cause these thoughts won't stop buzzing through my head
Reminding me of time I was better off dead
This pain has left a gaping hole in my heart
I can't tell you how or when it fell apart

The whispers plague the night
Telling me it's no use to try
So tell me now what reason I have to fight
When my heart's so cold that I can't even cry

Can't help the people I love so how can I help myself
Useless- helpless- don't have the strength to go on
Hide my emotions on the back of the shelf
Wait for ever for the light of dawn[that's never coming]

Cause these thoughts won't stop buzzing through my head
Reminding me of time I was better off dead
This pain has left a gaping hole in my heart
I can't tell you how or when it fell apart

This darkness has enveloped my mind
I don't know where to turn anymore
Go on ahead you can say that I'm kind
I just wish I had known this before

Cause these thoughts won't stop buzzing through my head
Reminding me of time I was better off dead
This pain has left a gaping hole in my heart
I can't tell you how or when it fell apart

I know that I- need help- with this
But I refuse it every time
This pain inside you miss-
Cause I always pretend I'm fine

Everyday, I ask myself why I can't cry
But when the tears well up inside
I hold them back and ask myself why
Do I force myself to hold it all in and hide

Cause these thoughts won't stop buzzing through my head
Reminding me of time I was better off dead
This pain has left a gaping hole in my heart
I can't tell you how or when it all fell apart
It all fell apart