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You see my life. you hear my cries. yet you still believe my shameful lies.

i slit once. i slit twice. through my head i hear the cries.

staring at my arm, i know third time's charm. so i go again, feel the sin. just waiting for it all to end. Staying&&waiting&& yet still debating. will you still love me? will you care? Do the feelings i have share?

i bleed once. i bleed twice. yet you never noticed as my inside dies.

you killed me now. you killed me then. so why dont you kill me again?

i feel the pain. nothing, i have gained. i want more. till i hit the floor. screw off the saftey. how about just the pins....&& needles. razors&&pills. guns with bullets. all the same. filled with shame. as you recite each name. all used alike. never put up a fight. just stick it to you. close your eyes. just relax && let it go. feel the flow. sets you free. cant you see? you may bleed. you feel release. of pain && hate. you couldnt see your awful fate. but now you know. because it shows.

you feel my screams. you hear my sighs. but you cant look into these black eyes.

sick && twisted. you thought i missed it. i see your hate. help me out of this cage. i want to be loved. so now push comes to shove. i kill your soul. you are now in this hole. covered in roses.

i loved you more. i loved you most. so lets put up this shameful toast. heart