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ok so i skipped 2 days SUE ME....i love you im sorry.
im going great right now.
im loveing it.
bad thing is i am on spring break && i have nothing to do because i am grounded so i cannot leave this hell hole.
so i sit on my tushie on this goddamn computer && type. i will eventually need glasses.&& i feel as if i have no life BECAUSE im up the computers butt all day long.
i feel fat already. but now i feel worse because if i sit down && am bored out of my mind i wanna munch on something like chips. BAD HABIT!. so i drink water && eat crackers. i lost too much weight last time doin that. so i am leaning on doin that BUT everyone will get on me "you are anorexic or bullemic" "you need to go outside && do something" "blah blah freaking blah" i hate the out doors but it feels so great outside. just i dont like it. i feel less lonely on the computer. x-p but my mom is threatening to take my laptop && hide it in her room. i hate laptops.... -.-
well anyways. i want to post another poem. to make up for the past 2 days....so i will have 2.
btw: the writing above was for today.


omfg.
i lost 80% of my poems. crying


well here's one.

here i lie.
while i cry.
i wish to die.
this life is great.
but i want to escape.
with an easy fate.
can you help me now?
if so... how?
make it easy.
make it fast.
so i can be.
in the past.
just a wonder...
would you care?
or is that a feeling.
you cant share?
it dont matter.
because i dont matter.
so i slit up my arm.
feeling quite alarmed.
asking myself, "what did i just do?"
as the blood fled fast && through.
then, with a smirk i told myself.
"no one cares for you"
with that i fell to the floor.
gone.
forever more.


[[short poem]]
my mouth touches your lips.
as they are blood drenched.
you will be missed.
after this last kiss.
i loved the collision of us.
you're the only one i trust.
now you are gone away.
&& all i can say is...
...i miss you.