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Heh... yeah, I know how that feels. Unfortunately... I've been having those kind of issues around a certain person. Lately, when I want to talk to her really badly, because I hardly see her and I really want to continue getting to know her... because I haven't known her as long. But whenever I think of maybe calling her on the phone or finding them during my free time at school, I get so paranoid and freaked out. I get so damn afraid and discouraged, feeling that I'm only going to say something wrong or pathetic, or that I may say something discouraging to her or may be a burden. I've isolated myself for so long... I guess I just need to find ways to push myself and rebuild my confidence. Anyway... enough of my stupid issues... You're not insane Mech Kuu. It's good to ask questions. Socrates said himself that it is the wisest that are able to mention that they don't know. Asking questions is what makes us think. Thinking is what makes us experience wonder in the world around us. Some questions just may not be meant to have a direct answer... there are some things that nobody knows for sure... and somehow, that can put us at ease... I don't know how to explain it... but that's the impression I get when I reflect on it... I wouldn't worry about losing your friendship. Everyone trips on their tongue once in a while... I do it all the time... And if you feel that you said something wrong, you can always apologize to your friend and ask if it affected her in any such way. That's what I do... because I always doubt myself. And it prevents quilt from haunting me later. Don't worry... you're not insane. 3nodding