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God where to begin. Nikki my past was hell...I was always depressed and down..I never knew true love. Everyone used to pick on me... I just nevered fought back. That is why I am the person I am now.. Sesitive, Emotional, and depressed sometime. Honey you don't know how much joy and happiness you brought me in my life.. I know I get random moodswing and sometimes I go back to being depressed but I hope you can look past all that. Like I said thats the way I was brought up to be. I am happy with you Nikki and I wouldn't give you up for anything.. God...It haunts me to know that I am almost gave you up just because I thought you could find some one better. But just like you. I have found the best also.. You. Honey I don't know what I was thinking when I said I am leaveing you. Just so much stuff has been roaming through my head and it really doesn't help that I am really tired to lol. I just want you to know that I love you with every fiber in my body. I really do want to spend the rest of my life with you and even in the after life lol. I will try to fight off these thoughts because I don't want to lose you.. heart I know I have some down sides of me but I just hope you can look past that. I really don't know what I would do with out you my love. I would probably die from a broken heart...And I am not joking..I know we will always be together hell there might be some bumps on the way just like last night but I know in the end we will work it out.... I feel like you and I were ment to be. I just can't wait till the day we get married ^-^. Any ways I love you Nikki and I always will. Untill the day my last breath takes me from you.

I love you.