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i have a friend who is declared bi-sexual
but for the past 6 months all he talked about were boys.
everywhere we went it was "he's so hot!!" or "he's so not"

but he never said anything about liking girls.
and then it happened.

before he told me he was bi, he had liked me and had asked me out
but i turned him down, because, well, he was my friend and i didn't feel that way about him.

and then the other day we were talking and he says
"i love you"
and i'm all "well, love ya' too!"
and he's all, "no, i mean i really love you. you make me smile, and i love you."




i heard a freaking pin drop.

i don't feel that way about him

i mean, he's my friend so i love him like that.
but not like he loves me.

so was it wrong for me to just assume he was gay when he stopped talking about girls?


not bi, but gay?

apparently.


here's the real kicker.
i had a horrible crush on this boy at school.
he was smart, funny, hot on a skateboard or the soccer field, and wicked good at saxophone and hacky-sack.

and guess who totally blew it for me?

my bi friend.

he ruined anything me and my crush could have had.


i still want him to be my friend.




but i don't think he messed things up on accident.