Hopeless Farewell
He had to get out, and that was all there was to it.
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Same coasts, same gossip, same blitzball, same stupid little play-fights breaking out on the shoreline. Even after being eclipsed in darkness and two years passing by nothing seemed to change since the night the door opened. It was comforting, and yet... it made this soul restless. An uneasy sigh escaped his pale lips as he stared out his bedroom window. Yet again he was stuck in the prison-like world he was born in, and all but his best friends were oblivious to the outside world. It made him anxious, being treated like a normal person again.He had to get out, and that was all there was to it.
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'Like I could ever be normal again,' Riku thought bitterly, not even bothering to brush away the long bangs from his face. It made it so much easier to lie on what was going on in his mind if they couldn't see through the veil; maybe that was why that Nobody kept his right eye covered with his bangs. ...And here came the resentment again; great. Why wouldn't these thoughts just leave him alone?
Riku sighed as he fell back onto his bed, arms spread out to each side and his mind going at a frightening pace, back to the door hidden in the back of their secret place, to the drawing carved into the rock next to it. True, some roots had found their way in front of it now, but it was still there. Sora and Kairi extending paopu fruit to each other... He was just a third wheel in this friendship; left out once again. Sometimes, like right now, he wondered... Would they even notice if he was gone? What if he left for good? Would they even miss him?
A small voice in the back of his head said 'yes,' but it was mostly ignored as he stood, making his way across the room and to the desk. Writing usually helped clear his head, and he'd always burn what he wrote so his mother wouldn't know what was going on with him. She'd always ask what all the ashes in his wastebasket were from, but a simple shrug normally kept her from asking further. It wasn't like he was burning his homework or something; it was always turned in on time.
But that didn't matter. This time, he probably wouldn't burn it.
'Sora... Kairi...' the note began, in his own, trembling handwriting, 'You both mean the World to me, but with me how I am now... it's too painful to stay here and watch the light shining within you both so bright. I know you don't mean to, but when I watch you both it just... reminds me of how much darkness is still within my heart. All that old jealousy starts creeping up again.
'I know I'm being selfish, but I just need to get away for a while before I explode. Good luck, Sora. Maybe we'll cross paths among the stars.'
Ten minutes later, when his friends came to check on him since he hadn't come to their meeting place... that note, a discarded pen, and a closing corridor were the only things to let anyone know Riku had been there.
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I can't even see your face
The pressure is closing in; it's taking me again
Wait, it's all that I can take
And every single day a part of my soul is fading
