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ok it's been a couple weeks & after the initial horror of rediscovering this place i think acting defensively probably wasnt the most mature decision and thats not how i want to close out this journal. yes, i don't think it would be fair for anyone to be held to all the shitty and embarrassing things they say when they're in their teens, but at the same time it's important for anyone reading this to understand that though this was a part of me, i'm an adult now and i've grown as a person. so i'd like to formally apologize for being a gross weeaboo and a judgmental p***k, especially from the years 2008 to 2011. i recognize that i held a lot of harmful views and i'd like to thoroughly put this behind me.