I Loved a man and it was grand. It's been two years and 7 months since we've spoken. And he's moved on. I've been down, I've been out, but I'm up now.
I have realized as much as I love a few men and long for a companion, It would not be fair to date them. I am a ball of emotional, not all of it good. I Have too much to sort through yet. So once again, I Must stand aside as others flock to the ones I love. Helpless, I Must pretend to be unattached. For Fate knows I fall for impossible men.
I am Focusing more on schoolwork, or at least that's my excuse. Because Schoolwork gives me an escape from my problems. I'm doing good on my trek to graduating Highschool. I'm 19, and I should have my diploma within a month or two. Then I am applying to take college courses at the local college here in town. If I found a job ontop of that, and finally learned how to drive, I would be set. There would be no time for sorrow and wallowing in lonliness. There would be no time for self-pity and woe.
I'll Chew you up and Spit you out and stomp you into the ground.